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Asmaria ([personal profile] asmaria) wrote2016-12-01 09:12 am

Sometimes I just have so many feelings I don't know what to do with them

Went to bed emotionally and physically exhausted. I feel physically rested. Emotionally better too, but there's a lot I just don't have an outlet for or know how to put in words and I guess I'm just putting it here because it needs to go somewhere.

And it's... not necessarily a bad thing. Just a weight in my chest I'm trying to sort out into something meaningful.

All that vague dramatic insight aside, I did jack shit yesterday aside from sort out my RP timeline and eat a cookie I shouldn't have. ;;; Oh and I guess I sewed a bow, too.

The week is already almost over? That's good and bad. I have Christmas shopping to do this weekend. [personal profile] insidious and I are going shopping Saturday, I have packages to mail out, my family is doing Christmas Tree lighting where we go to each other's houses and have dinner and decorate together until it's all done. It's always fun. I wish I had more time in the day though to just hang out with [personal profile] insidious. It's not something I really even realized until the last day or so but for living together, all I've been doing this year is sewing shit or lazing about the house, so we don't go out and do enough.

Sunday is more shopping/hanging out with [livejournal.com profile] togabitoion. We're gonna go see Nocturnal Animals. I feel like I've put off a lot of chances we had to hang out this year, too.

I'm just really glad that I don't have a lot going on in December cosplaywise and for once have time to do things with friends. But at the same time, it feels like because of that, I can't possibly cram in enough of what I've been missing all year. It's I guess related to the feelings above. I want to do everything, but there's also the matter of budgeting since I'm spending all over the place to try and get everyone gifts.

Where else was I going with this? I just wish the weekend was longer and I had a little extra money to blow on my friends, lol.