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That movie (Nocturnal Animals) was... a trip. I was not prepared. It did make you think by the end of it, but there were some shocking things in it I had no idea of, so if you plan to go see it, be warned you might want to look up why it's rated what it was. It was well done for what it was, though. I guess what I can take away from it is that I am a lot more stable at handling movies with unsettling content in them than I used to be. I enjoyed the acting in it, too. I didn't recognize that it was the same actress (Amy Adams) as the one in Arrival (THAT movie was amazing, omg) and Enchanted. And it was really weird to see Jake Gyllenhaal (how does one pronounce his name anyway?) play an emotionally fragile/damaged man after JUST watching Prince of Persia the other day.

...I much prefer him as Dastan, though. X)

So movies aside, I got a good chunk of Christmas shopping done. We went to an antique mall and to the regular malls, too. My family is really hard to shop for so I'm kind of going for the gift-card angle but along with something meaningful as a small trinket with it, with significance to what each person likes. For example I got my brother an antique wooden box to put the gift card in, because he and my sister-in-law like handmade things. Whereas my little sister only wants makeup... at least that was easy lol.

I don't think I've done as much mall-ratting in high-end malls as I have this weekend. It's a bit overwhelming to realize how much things in a lot of those shops cost. I never go into them. I window-shopped a lot of the fancy stores with my friends and felt just how small my own wallet was, jeez. I realize we live in a world with a skewed sense of value, going either direction. I make a lot of my own things, but mostly in cosplay. I understand the value of a well-made item, whether one of a kind or manufactured, and a lot of that gets undersold when people think it should be sold for less already. But I don't like the overly high cost of big name brands. I also dislike how cheap fast fashion is when it's probably made in some overseas sweatshop. It leaves me in a weird place, where I wouldn't mind spending more or buying brand things, but sometimes I think the label upcharge on them is just ridiculous. Extremely ridiculous. I'm still eternally torn over that. I'd like to own the same things my friends are oogling, and then I want to spend my money on sewing stuff instead, or set it aside for things like my home or a vacation or just being responsible. I'm not really going anywhere with this except I felt extremely poor and small walking into those stores. But I know if I switched my priorities around and saved, I could probably at least get a nice thing or two.

I like fandom too much, for the most part, though...

[personal profile] insidious played some more .hack//GU this weekend. It was just leveling, though the end of the game is very near. I tried to play some more Trails in the Sky but I fell asleep. The only real chance I had at attempting it was after going to my dad's for tree-decorating on Saturday night. They invited [personal profile] insidious over, too, and I think it's cool that my family included her since she only really gets to go home a few times a year for holiday stuff. And it's something I appreciate a lot since I don't really have anyone else I'm as close to to drag along with me to family gatherings.

I blew off my diet this weekend and I regret it immensely. It's really an understatement to call it a diet, when it's more of a lifestyle to eat low carb like I do. My body could REALLY feel the difference when I ate rice and sweets and other filling things. I got super sick later in the day. It felt like a horrible sugar crash and I was exhausted and my heart was a bit fluttery. If I think of binging on sweets again, I really just need to remember how awful I felt. x_x It sucks because I fucking love sweets and carbs. But a little restraint will save me tons of feeling terrible later.

Tonight I will try to get a lot of things done that I wasn't able to since I wasn't home much. No excuses, I have to clean out the sink. -_- And make another bow. Start some laundry. I need to start working on Leorio's briefcase. That's probably enough for one night.
asmaria: (Dance)
Went to bed emotionally and physically exhausted. I feel physically rested. Emotionally better too, but there's a lot I just don't have an outlet for or know how to put in words and I guess I'm just putting it here because it needs to go somewhere.

And it's... not necessarily a bad thing. Just a weight in my chest I'm trying to sort out into something meaningful.

All that vague dramatic insight aside, I did jack shit yesterday aside from sort out my RP timeline and eat a cookie I shouldn't have. ;;; Oh and I guess I sewed a bow, too.

The week is already almost over? That's good and bad. I have Christmas shopping to do this weekend. [personal profile] insidious and I are going shopping Saturday, I have packages to mail out, my family is doing Christmas Tree lighting where we go to each other's houses and have dinner and decorate together until it's all done. It's always fun. I wish I had more time in the day though to just hang out with [personal profile] insidious. It's not something I really even realized until the last day or so but for living together, all I've been doing this year is sewing shit or lazing about the house, so we don't go out and do enough.

Sunday is more shopping/hanging out with [ profile] togabitoion. We're gonna go see Nocturnal Animals. I feel like I've put off a lot of chances we had to hang out this year, too.

I'm just really glad that I don't have a lot going on in December cosplaywise and for once have time to do things with friends. But at the same time, it feels like because of that, I can't possibly cram in enough of what I've been missing all year. It's I guess related to the feelings above. I want to do everything, but there's also the matter of budgeting since I'm spending all over the place to try and get everyone gifts.

Where else was I going with this? I just wish the weekend was longer and I had a little extra money to blow on my friends, lol.
asmaria: (Fakir)
I went back to my old icon journal and realized someone had commented on my Garsiv icon set from the Prince of Persia Sands of Time movie. Now I'm watching that movie again and making new icons lol. I'll upload what I have done today and then work on more later.

I forgot how damn much I love that movie and the characters and actors in it. a;sljghasf And I love family shit and fantasy stories.

Last night I made some low carb hamburger bun bread with Wio flour. It's pretty much regular flour with an enzyme blocker in it, but it's more absorbent than regular flour in my experience, so the first time I made it I had trouble with dry dough. This time, I added WAAAAY too much, and it got stuck on EVERYTHING, omg. It was pretty messy and annoying to deal with, and baking bread is a trip - I have a long way to go to get good at it.

Regardless, it came out okay and maybe it helped that I over-cooked it a bit to compensate. They're all lopsided buns, but they taste good. Tonight is BBQ sandwich night with [personal profile] insidious.

I have been playing catch-up with my games since I have time to now, and only a few things to sew between now and Ikkicon/Christmas. (just a briefcase cover for Leorio and some bows for my roommate's niece) I started up Ys I (Chronicles version) on Steam on my work computer (because it's slow here sometimes and I'm allowed), and I've made it all the way to Zeiss in Trails in the Sky at home. The reason I was up so late finishing the bread is because I got distracted playing that, and RPing. I have a growing urge to RP Kloe in my sandbox, among all the other plot threads I have going on. Sometimes I wish it was as easy to write fic (and with random crossovers for that matter) as it was to do world crossovers in roleplay. There is not enough time in the day for all the muses I want to unleash.
asmaria: (Kurapika)
I took a break from facebook and I still don't want to go back. I know any social media is likely to depress me, but I still want an outlet of some kind.

I've had a week off with no sewing whatsover, and it's been great. Enough to recharge and feel the itch to make something new, though. Maybe this time I can prevent myself from burying myself in too much to do, because then I get overwhelmed and have no creativity at all.

[personal profile] insidious has been playing .hack//GU and since I've never played them, it's so much fun to finally know the story outside of the ROOTS anime. I feel so bad for Haseo though, everyone uses him. I actually grew to like pretty much everyone in this game though (Even Atoli I don't hate anymore), but Ovan is still a butt. :|

I'm not sure when, but I plan to cosplay both Zelkova and Silabus. I have a weird OTP of Silabus x Haseo too lolol.

Anime North Texas is in a week, and we just got back from Nebraskon from last weekend (which was also a lot of fun). I've got to start sewing Kortopi (Hunter x Hunter) this weekend because I'll be wearing that while [personal profile] insidious borrows Feitan. I'm also bringing Kurapika and possibly Spanner (Hitman Reborn).

Also, I saw Dr. Strange with [ profile] togabitoion and [ profile] runegrey and it was a heck of a lot better than I ever thought it would be. I really enjoyed it!!

Other than that, I've kept my mind occupied with playing Sailor Moon Drops. That game is addicting.
asmaria: (Daisya)
Watching .hack//SIGN and reading journals at work... I'm having a strange sense of deja vu and it's just too weird.
asmaria: (Kurapika)
I started watching Owari no Seraph since all my friends are into it. I really like the idea of the plot, but haven't settled yet on if the characters grab me beyond their stereotypes. I keep finding myself liking them, but then getting disappointed when things fall exactly into the set of events I am predicting them to. I was really iffy on the purple-haired girl being annoying or not, and then just when I started liking her, I wanted to punch her in the face. But... But I keep wanting to see how it ends, and so I'm about 6 episodes in.

But I'm so busy.

All I've been doing lately is sew all day (on weekends), eat, sleep, go to work, INTEND to sew at my desk, but work gets frustrating with tasks I should be able to complete quickly, but somehow wrangle most of my time away, and then it's nearly time to go home and repeat the process and sew until I'm too exhausted to think straight.

I am really hanging in there for a break. But I have 3 costumes to complete, and as usual, they are just difficult. x_x

Anyway, have a progress shot, if you're interested. This is Sync for my roommate, for Aselia-con.

Read more... )

I've got to finish this, my Brute costume from Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World, and a Decus costume we've started for her as well. Just three more weeks. I can do this. x_x I want to have both of hers completely done by not this weekend, but the next.

Sorry I've been quiet otherwise. This is what's been eating my life.
asmaria: (Dilandau)
Everything with Slayers fell through for Ikkicon, and I was bummed about it, but we pulled off our Blue Exorcist costumes (thanks to and it was much less stressful thanks to that. @_@ I think I need to get to bed early again tonight though, because I'm still tired.

First though, I've got to clean the living room, kitchen, and start working on what isn't finished from our cosplays for the next cons. Xellos came down to being like 95% done except maybe it's more like 90% when I think about how much work those goddamn rectangles on his trim are. There are 33 of them. A circular cape is deceptively large if you think about it. T____T

I'm going to take them to work to do them by hand tomorrow. Tonight, I'm starting my Brute costume from Tales of Symphonia 2, for Aselia-con.

And next Saturday, I FINALLY get to see Star Wars. I've been waiting this long and am somewhat spoiled, annoyingly so, but I've avoided hearing anything else about it, since. :|
asmaria: (Fakir)
I never had time to make the dress I wanted to for the meetup. :( I'm disappointed to be wearing the same dress I wore last year. But I'll try to change it up a bit with accessories at least, and maybe I'll have my dress done by the new years meet. :/ I'd considered not going today, but I'd been looking forward to it for months and I still should get to the mall to finish my Christmas shopping.

Then there's my cosplays. As usual, I should have started sooner, but it's only been in the past month that I've felt enough energy to do anything. So here's hoping I can catch up by next week. X_x I'll have an update later tonight about things.
asmaria: (Dance)
So for Ikkicon this January, my roommate [personal profile] insidious and I are going to be Xellos and Lina Inverse, from Slayers! I started her costume last week. Mine, I did start a few weeks back, but life has gotten in the way and so I didn't get as far as I wanted. But I did do a significant amount on Saturday, at least.

pics! )

The sleeves aren't hemmed in that pic, but I did that Sunday morning. I was going to hem the pants, but a lot of things came up and stressed me out, so no more progress yet... But I intend to catch up tonight. The pattern for the cape is already cut out, the hemline on the pants are marked, and I can get started as soon as I get home.

Also, I need to finish the EGL skirt I was working on. @_@ The Lolita meetup is this Saturday and I still have nothing to wear. I miiight be pulling an all-nighter tonight. x_x
asmaria: (Dilandau)
Alright, I haven't done one of these in forever, but I feel like writing this one up.

Read more... )

I'll write up part 2 soon! This is way more than enough for one post!
asmaria: (Kurapika)
 I'm going to Anime North Texas this weekend!

I've been working on some simple costumes over the weekend and this week, but even that was too much for my old sewing machine to handle. It went out, then the machine I borrowed froze up (I suspect rust or something internal), and the latest machine I got my hands on is from like 1950 or something, and the band is about to snap (like my machine also did). 

I just.

Can this please stop happening right before a con for me? I'm exhausted. 4 hours sleep is not cutting it, nor is this stress, but I'm going to get this tunic done, so help me. It's for a group my friend has really really wanted to do. I don't want to default on it, even if that means finishing it at the con. :|

If you're going though, I'll be there in Touka (Tokyo Ghoul) on Friday, and hopefully the Hero of Spielburg (Quest for Glory II) on Saturday if the latest sewing machine I borrow tonight holds up... and same thing goes for Sunday; I'll be Ashiya (Devil is a Part-Timer) if I can get my apron done. :(

Well all of the stress aside, I'm excited for it...
asmaria: (Fakir)
Oh my god, this show. ;_; It's only 12 episodes. I cried at pretty much every one of them at some point or another.

I wish it hadn't ended, but at the same time, I think that's the perfect number of episodes to resolve what it did. I wouldn't mind a second season, but I know it would be different from the first.

I need to cosplay from it, though, and maybe read fic. @_@

...pandora, you are not helping here.
asmaria: (Dilandau)
Well this is a spontaneous update. I wanna ramble on about something though, and don't really have anyone to listen.

I started watching Death Parade, and it's really interesting! At first I found it upsetting. The premise is that after people die, they are sent to this bar called Quindecim, where arbiters decide upon who will be reincarnated, or who will be sent to the void/hell. The more I watch it though, the more psychological it gets, breaking down people's motivations and what makes one human, the emotions that drive us, etc. It's just... really, really fascinating.

I haven't been able to hate a single character. More often than not it makes me want to cry. I'm a little sentimental, though. ;;;

And the characters driving the decisions are complicated too, even though they were meant to have no emotion. I'm on episode 9, and I have to get to a doctor's appointment, but it's a cliffhanger and so that means I've got to wait until tomorrow. Augh.

But I have RP to write with my roommate tonight. That's generally how I spend my evenings. As much as I've tried to play in public games, I can't seem to stick with it when I have only a couple of people I can write consistently with and not have all my ideas dry up.

Thus the Dilandau icon rather than Decim or Nona or something, haha. I've been writing him and it's a lot of fun.

I guess I had better catch my ride, though. I might have more to say on this show, later.
asmaria: (Default)
I just found my archives of RP from all the MUCKs I joined over the years.

That sure was some quality RP back in the day... lmao )
asmaria: (Jude hmmm)
This is a test to crosspost to my LJ. Yeah, I guess that means I'm posting there again. :P
asmaria: (pic#)
Okay, I'm making an effort to update this thing. I just admitted to a friend that I don't have the energy to keep up with my journal anymore, but the thing is, I really want to. I really overexerted myself the last few months preparing for Aseliacon. It was worth it, though. I just don't know how to balance my time and all the stress.

The con was amazing. I want to post a report on it at some point. I took a lot of video and have uploaded half of it, then I got sidetracked just being lazy at home and watching old episodes of Hell's Kitchen and playing games. But I haven't even finished those. I started Tales of Xillia and Tales of Symphonia, but the only thing I've been able to wrap my head around lately is the stories I've been writing with my roommate. I know that's boring to everyone else. I wish my brain didn't get stuck in a one-track rut, because I'd like to be able to do lots of other things at the same time, too. I have another amazing RP I'm in and it's like my brain just won't compute and give me the energy to focus on it. I feel like crap for that.

I started working on the boots for [personal profile] insidious's Raven costume. (She's going to be Raven and I'm going to be Karol for A-kon) But my fingers still have not forgiven me for making Alvin's boots. They are cracked and peeling. Hand sewing is a bitch. I need sewing gloves like hardcore. u_u And then I got sick and haven't felt like doing much of anything ON TOP of not feeling like doing anything. -_-

I swear to god I'm going to accomplish something tonight. I took the boots to work and I can't even force the needle through the leather. I guess I'll attempt to awkwardly force them through the sewing machine tonight if that works... Failing that, no matter how uncomfortable I feel, I need to get started on sewing Raven's shirt. I want it done by this weekend.

Nevermind that I have flower accesories to sew for my shop... @_@
asmaria: (Arche)
Posting this to do list here so I have some place to keep up with it... Even if I don't get it all done, I want to get at least half tonight. ~_~

Make dinner
Stitch down ribbon on Leia collar

Take out all the trash in the garage
Pick up all the trash bags upstairs
Clean off my desk
Clean the floor around my desk
Move one of the sewing machines upstairs
Take pics of the manga for sale and post online
Make Alvin boot cuff pattern
Finish Lloyd jacket pattern
Start Alvin vest pattern
Start Leia boot cuff pattern
asmaria: (Default)
I've been sewing lately, getting ready for Aselia Con. I've got 3 costumes to make (Lloyd Irving and Leia Rolando for me, Alvin for [personal profile] insidious). I'm running a panel on Exspheres and Key Crests as Lloyd, and I'm volunteering. I am trying to draw enough stuff to have an art table.

Am I overexerting myself?


But I'm so excited. ;_____;

I watched Julie play all the way through Xillia on Jude's side. When I'm done with everything, I'll play Milla's side. I have spoiled myself mostly though, because I kinda had an emotional freak out about the things I didn't know and needed to for RP. It was a little bit dumb of me. But I hope I'll still enjoy my playthrough.

Last night I played more Vesperia and got all the way to the scene with Belius and Leviathan's Claw. (Ugh and I wanted to cry, that scene and my feels.... ;_;) Probably should have worked more on Alvin's shirt, but I can do that tonight. It should be done, save the trim on the collar. I'll work all weekend to try and get the rest of his accessories and vest done. Lloyd's gloves need to be finished for me to be satisfied, too.

That gives me like 6 weeks to make his coat, Lloyd's shirt, and Leia's dress. I can do this. I will not panic. I swear sometimes the overarching scope of a project can sometimes send me into an everlasting state of anxiety, but I seem to be doing really well with my sewing again and... not to jinx myself, I think if I just keep at this pace it'll be fine. Dad is having my sewing machine repaired, and I'm borrowing a working one right now besides.

I started cooking bento again. Well, more like last night I finally used the butternut squash I bought back in December. Damn, whatever the local farms are doing to grow produce, that stuff lasts... I know it's a winter squash and it should anyway, but it was still super hard to cut up. I put it in my slow-cooker and so that along with leftovers is my lunch for today.

Bento! )

I hope if I just use the slow cooker a lot I can eat healthy and keep up my strength. I need to stop eating out, to save time and money for these cosplays (and my hotel room e_e). I also had gained back half of what I lost over Christmas break, and managed to get down to 209 again. If I can be 199 by the middle of March, I'll be happy no matter how I look in my Leia cosplay.

Ugh I need to eat now. I'll post more updates later. I'm starving and my head hurts. T_T


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